today was beautiful. like a lighthouse - strong & clear. made 3 new phrases of movement. created them in the grass across from the plum yard. a sea of corn fields. stalks a foot taller than me|she|he|ze.

then i called my father:

i will spend my life saying the same words to you. i will spend my life hoping you will somehow live. i will spend my life waiting for you to see. i will spend my life wishing you would wake-up. i will spend my life wanting you to know me. i will spend my life afraid of the phone ringing. i will spend my life terrified of becoming you. i will spend my life wanting to hold your hand. i will spend my life trying to dissolve my anger. i will spend my life wishing a change would come. i will spend my life loving you from a far.

-n.nigro 2018